Hi! I’ve meditated on and off for over a decade. I’ve been using the Muse now for 25 days straight and just got to 99% calm in a 20 minute session in a weird way.
Initially I tried to focus on my breath and that sometimes worked. Then at one point the chirping would throw me off my game and I realized I was judging. So instead of fighting the judgment, I admitted the truth, that I am happiest when I judge others and myself. And darn but it started chirping like crazy. Granted, being Asian means both genetically and culturally judging often goes to the very core of who we are.
Since then I’ve continued with high results. I was hoping at one point I would get sick of it, and I tried I am happiest when I release myself from all judgment but that didn’t work too well. Today I tried: I accept that I judge others and myself, I understand that I judge others and myself, I am happiest when I understand why I judge others and myself. I can transmute the fact that I judge others and myself. They all work which is why I got to 99% calm.
There was one day when the deep truth of that statement also hit, that my life has been good overall because judging happens with high standards, I tend to be forward thinking and that has kept me out of trouble. Having said that, for years I’ve balanced this with self-compassion and compassion for others.
So I’m wondering if what the Muse measures isn’t calm at all, it’s focus. And maybe authenticity or alignment. If focusing on the breath doesn’t work, I think it’s because focusing on breathing isn’t something I’m naturally passionate about. But judging – wow. That’s a subject that, during a Muse session, I could ponder endlessly. I wonder whether or not I’m even meditating. Oh, I also get high results by turning down the volume as far as possible, that cuts out the distractions.